Greenbeans

I was meditating when...

I felt tears drip down my neck

Called you on a landline

Loneliness is a landslide  Upside down; my face is red My heart lives in my head and knocks on the front door every morning delivering the newspaper  Reminding me of the catastrophes that define me and my life and me and my life and who really is me and what really is life

Old pain and shower drains

Like a spider he still finds his way 

Covered him with a cup the other day 

He’s now still and in decay 

But never gone long or far away 

The weather yesterday 

Then the weather today 

My home my family is like weather change 

And I don’t have money for sunscreen or an umbrella 

Just greenbeans and Nutella 

Do you feel my dilemma?